The ruined city is still beautiful
I’m waiting a long time for your return
in my hand a forget-me-not flower.

It might be just like a bird in the cage
How could I reach to your heart?
I need you to be stronger than anyone
I release my soul so you can feel my song

Raindrops are my tears,
wind is my breath and my story,
branches and leaves are my hands,
because my body is wrapped in roots.
When comes the season of a thaw,
I’m awake and sing a song.
The forget-me-not that you gave me
is here.

Do you still remember?
Do you still remember your word that you gave to me?
Do you still remember?
Do you still remember the day when you…?

When the season of the forget-me-not comes
I will sing a song.
When the season of the forget-me-not comes, I’ll call you

Do you still remember?
Do you still remember your word that you gave to me?
Do you still remember?
Do you still remember the day when you…?

It could be the whole of the problem，change your body
I need you to be stronger than anyone
I release my soul so you feel my breath
Feel my move

Raindrops are my tears,
wind is my breath and my story,
branches and leaves are my hands,
because my body is wrapped in roots.
When comes the season of a thaw,
I’m awake and sing a song.
The forget-me-not that you gave me
is here.

~ lyrics taken from Gendou.com

 

Somebody that I used to know

Somebody That I Used To Know lyrics

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end
Always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I’ll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I’d done
And I don’t wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know…

But you didn’t have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don’t even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

I used to know
That I used to know

Somebody…

Never say no to Panda!

Today’s a bittersweet day for me. A true definition of “End starts a NEW BEGINNING” quote.

I’ll be saying goodbye to one of the best place *from my POV*  to work and start another that defines my real profession. This job I’m saying good bye to, nurtured my cheerful personality and made me feel home away from home. Sure, it has its downsides, especially when it’s peak season or when we’re one man down, but by the end of the day, we still have shits and giggles brewing.

by the end of a long day of work, this never fails to show up on my face

The nice and honest compliments customers give are a real heart warmer too. Every time I see a customer post a praise our effort, I get really happy inside. I mean, that sense of being complimented without even knowing that it’ll appear like that, is a real heart warmer.

Seriously, when I got the news that I have to say goodbye to this epic place, I had this tight knot brewing inside my entire body, and my head felt like a ton of  pressure was building up my head. I was close to tears while thinking of a less painful way of saying good bye. Sure, this job  isn’t that glorious, well paying but the experience was well worth it.

my face most likely when I tell my boss

So really, I dont know how to word my resignation. I dont know if I’ll have a straight face when I tell them I’m resigning. It feels like I betrayed them or something. Truthfully, I already saw this coming, but I never expect it to be this sudden.

I’ve talked to a couple of people to get their views on this matter, and logically, they have almost the same opinion about it. In a practical sense, yes, the path I’m heading to is much, much better and sacrifices are needed. But…

It’s really getting hard to type. My eyes are just watering up and I dont want to cry. I still have to work on my homework. I need to save my strength.

But really. It hurts. It really does. Its like, betraying your own family…

 

EDIT: EVERYTHING WENT LOLOZM. Boss was like “you’re fired!” I went “BUT I’M QUITTING?!”

RG 1/144 RX-178 Gundam MK-II (Release Date: Apr 2012, Price: 2500 yen)

RG 1/144 Gundam MK-II

Release Date: Apr 2012

Price: 2500 yen

Dead Space Cooking

Hurrrrr…. Dead Space. They said you were epic. They were right.

An epic winner in making me jump and paranoid with each sound I hear and room I enter.

I’ve never felt so cowardly to a game before! I’ve faced my F.E.A.R and dealt with swarms of headcrabs zombies while running on Half Life, ran for dear life from Husks and Scions on Mass Effect but never have I felt so chicken about a game with reanimated macabre corpses. Hmmm, maybe my previous games are a little bit different from Dead Space, but still, the fact that I’m too scared to play it doesnt change one bit.

I’m so into guro and gory mangas and animes. I grew up with Genocyber, Guyver and was in loved with the first movie of Ghost in the Shell. I have a thing for scary and gory movies, so long as I dont hear the sfx. I’m into really disgusting things like pressure ulcers and got hungry while watching a live brain surgery because I thought the flesh smelled like fish being grilled.

So what is so wrong with me?

I managed to finish 1 chapter of Dead Space earlier. I guess I can only play “fine” during daytime. As soon as it got a little dark, I “lost” interest in playing. However, it sparked an interest in me, so I’ve been doing some in depth research about it, and currently watching Dead Space: Downfall, it’s animated movie counterpart.

Speaking of movies, Halo had a series of OAVs, Dead Space had Downfall, how come my Mass Effect have no movie to its name? Considering how awesome this trilogy (ME 3 is coming out next year! Already set my dibs on the collector’s item piece :3 ), how come it has yet to gain an animated or much better a live action movie? ;__;

On a completely, but maybe related matter, I’m thinking of posting some Cooking tutorials to prove that I do cook, and they’re edible and tasty. People at work and sometimes, friends would often doubt my cooking prowess and would often insist that it’s my mom’s cooking, not mine.

Tch.

Sorry, I dont entirely fall into the useless category.

** I dont own these pictures…they belong to somebody else…I just got them off goole images